Hetic

Today is my worst worst terrible hetic day for me in my life..

I totally out of my mind... I go mad.. Crazy.. Cry..

Cannot endure all this anymore....

Who can help me? Soon or later, I will admit to IMH I guess.

Too much for me to take it...

How am I going to continue like this?

Try to find help but unable to..

Did not even corcern about me and my feeling..

It makes me like I am just a transparent or rather an replacement tool?

Not my job become my job? Old bird need to be very professional or expert to do everything?

What am I?

I am slow and forgetful person.

I am short term memory.

I could not take stress and pressure.

Today, I cried so loudly and shout. No one care. Even I do foolish stuff, no one care..

Even I cut myself, no one care..

Seriously, I am craze. I am too hetic in everything...

I say Lord, please save me...